worries for my troubled heart–nothing I can do though.
I got a call from my sister this morning–telling me my daughter had news that she needed to tell me-that she was crying over last night. That they would be coming by this morning. Of course, I sat there worrying every since I got that call. So, they came by. I understand why my daughter didnt want to tell me. She has seen how hard this has been for me-bless her. The news was that my son got jumped in jail. He’s beat up but ok I guess. I got the news yesteriday that they moved him to another unit. I dont know if its related.
Part of me wants to cry. There’s nothing I can do though. So, I’m hanging in there. The tears would be wasted. There is nothing I can do for him. I cant even see or call him for 30 days. Sighs. Its very hard being a mom sometimes.
I also need to do a budget. I dont want to. Its useless work as something always comes along and changes it.
My sister came by with my daughter. She looks so bad guys. She’s always been heavy like me. I think this is the heaviest I’ve seen her (she’s been up near 300 before). However, looking at her today. She has no neck–its fat from her face down to her chest. She has health problems. Another worry that I cant do nothing about. She’s not interested in losing weight. Unless of course, she is telling me she suddenly dropped 20 lbs by doing nothing. Lies to competite with me. There is no competition though. Whatever.
Ok, gotta get busy. Sorry about the down blogs guys, as the last couple have been. I’m really hanging in there–this is just my way of trying to ease my worries. I’m tired of worries–I know theres good stuff though.
Good news is that the scale is down again for the second time this week. I”m keeping an eye on it because pms is fixing to start–weigh in is saturday and i’m watching for water weight. Its not much each time, but I’ll darn sure take it. Hoping when weigh in comes Saturday–i’ll still be able to claim it. However, by knowing what i’ve lost–keep me on track mentally instead of giving in to a “dont give a crap” attitude about weight loss.
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