somemansdream

Sometimes on this journey, our emotions get the best of us. Things happen and we feel like we just cant go on anymore. That we’ve had it–this is it. That all you wanna do is give up. There has been a lot of times where i’ve been frustrated on this journey. However, those true moments of “I just cant do this-i’m done” has been very few thankfully. There is almost always that little spark that stays alive. Then, you guys come along and you lift me up–telling me that I can do this. That this is just a moment in time that i’ve feeling so down–that it too will pass. You guys–that is what its all about. Lifting each other up when we just feel like we cant go on anymore. If I havent told you guys lately–I am so very blessed to call you guys friends. I couldnt do this without you guys and your my lifeline. You guys are there for me on this journey more then anyone else has been, family included.  Thank you!

Now, after I had my meltdown, I came in and wrote another blog yesteriday. Its time now. To keep going. To put my feet back on the right path. That is what I started yesteriday. I got a new workout plan laid out. I’m only doing things that I think I can do without strain/stress on my knee. I will adapt as I need to. I do not think I can do a long walk right now. So, every so often–walk from room to room in the house. If its pretty enough (its been realllllly cold) then maybe the street right here by the house. I’ve done that before. Instead of looking at it, well I cant do this or that….I’ve changed my focus on what I can do. I am looking to make as many changed as I have too.

Some of you know i’m doing Paul McKennas-”I can make you thin ” plan. Easiest thing in the world. No more screwing it up. It has 4 little rules and I’m no longer gonna do this my way–and some of his too. Guess what, it doesnt work that way–go figure lol. That means–and listen closely (this is to me)….NO BOOKS!!! None, read before or after you eat…NO! Start listening to my body. Stop worrying if my body knows how to tell if i’m  hungry (yes, i’m serious–I do worry about it). It also knows how to tell me “i’m full”. Even a child can do that–so its time to end the worries and focus on enjoying the food and eating consciously.

Also, yes, I drink lots of water…..from now on–drink my water before noon—this getting up all night long to go to the bathroom is crazy!!

My goal for next week–follow my workouts, do my food plan…and drop 2 lbs next week.

Thats it guys. Happy Halloween–stay safe and warm buddies.

P.S. Yeah, one more thing. I cant changed anything thats happened–with the gains, with my knee etc. So, there is no since in continuing to let it drag me down. We all have that fighter in our souls–that says…its time to kick some butt.