Feeling like this is it, game over and i’m out.
I weighed in last night after eating my meals—and then this morning before anything–exactly the same, down to the oz. I figured it up–from my lowest weight til now–its a 17 lb gain all together. That makes me just sick.
Last few months have been very stressful–I know that. There wasnt anything I could do about it. I had to ride it out.
One of the stresses was the thought of my son spending years and years in prison. Well, we got through all the courts and stuff. He was sentence to 2 years state jail. They picked him up last week–wed if he was right about it. Every day I check my mail, hoping a letter is there. I dont know where he is, or what kind of conditions he is facing. Its been a week and i’m still waiting. Praying a letter is there today. I keep trying to tell myself all this stuff–he’s grown, he’s ok…and if something would have happened, they would have called, right? Its not working.
So, to top it off–I took a hit on my knee last night. I was outside playing with Chance–to be honest–I dont know if he hit me or I stepped back and got him. However the result was the same. We both fell. Hubby wanted to take me to the ER. Forget it. I dont think anything is broken, just messed up. It makes me sick. Last fall I took with this same knee took forever–months and months of time to get as well as it did–and I still have problems with it. Now this.
So, I’m really feeling like this is it, game over and i’m out. I feel like..whats the point? (crap, tears..).
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Hey - I have read so many of ur blogs over the time im here & really feel by power of god or what ever might force there lies beyond us humans = u are due for a big break! I have a old,old friend - wise - age gap doesn’t matter - tell u what does , is what he says. All bad times are signs of good ones to come and good ones signs of bad times to come. Both good and bad times never last for ever. Guess Im saying - this spell of bad luck will be over for u too , its got too. HOLD ON in there. Right ur son - yes he will be ok - if not they would have told u. 2. Try excercise - but with ur knee its knackered - so bugger that. inSTEAD - start a food diary. Eat as u are for 3 days = record it & then alter bits of it, stick at it for a week & alter again. NEVER LET THE FOOD DIARY GO . Ur weight gain will become a loss without knowing it. AS for the scales put them away out of sight, for a month at least - id say for 3 months. I refuse to look at mine - just go by the feel of my clothes. take care, chin up.x
You make me want to drive 8 hours to come give you a hug. I know you are having difficult times but it’s time to make a change for yourself and stop worrying about what you cannot change. This is one hurdle of a million more you’ll have to get through. Keep pushing onward and watching your weight dropping downward. Come on Deb! You can do it! Make a change today and start feeling the results tomorrow. Do something that’ll lift your spirits. Sending an air hug your way since I can’t offer a real one.
Thank you.
Well, i’m over my pity party.
Time to look and see what I can do.
you’ve done so well & come so far… I think this is a funk you’ll definitely get through… the uncertainty regarding your son, and physical worries and stress can be discouraging, but try not to let it derail you… you’ll feel REALLY bad if you allow that to happen, all of your progress would have been for naught… take a break, relax and refocus.. make a new plan if you must… ur a fighter
tough chiq 
hang in there…
You have got me through some rough times with your excellent blogs and you can still lose weight. Don’t let all the stressors keep you from helping yourself. You are worth. So, start over and keep at it and you will be losing before you know it. I am sorry about your son and hope you find him.
If you’re going through hell, keep going. ~Winston Churchill
I read somewhere that having children is like having your heart walk around outside your body. Every heartbreak they have, every mistake they make, every disappointment they experience we feel, as well, and we can’t protect them from most of it. He will get through this, though, with your love and support, and so will you.
You can push through this!
Oh, I so relate! the back trouble has been such a mental setback as much as the physical issues. But if you keep doing what you can, and think about healthy choices for food, you can get through it without gaining again. I actually did manage to lose a little while it healed. So hang in there! We 40-something women are made of tough stuff!
Debra, you have been thru way more than most people should ever have to deal with. I do know stress can cause weight gain, plus now you have an injury. But hey you are looking it in the face and dealing with it, you will get it off, I know it.
You have come so far.
you cab be strong i know.
Hugs Gerrie