somemansdream

So excited and happy–god, you guys are doing awesome!!! This is my weekly check in for the quarters challenge. So, tell me about it….who’s got them beautiful quarters piling up in their jars????  I’ve gotten some myself this week for my workouts…whirls, just so happy!!  I know we are gonna rock this new week!! Come on guys, who’s with me??? Love Debbie

Ok, I’m going to tell you guys something and please feel free to share it with well meaning friends, family or even strangers. I have read a blog when a person was insulted very badly by a stranger…that pissed me off. Then, I read another blog about a “friend” tearing down someone’s plans for on getting back on track. Guess what….its really simple.  Tell them to kiss your ass.  Ok, no one has the right to comment on a strangers weight…guess what…if its not yours…its not your business unless you are being loving and supportive.  There is something my mom always told me when I was growing up. “If you cant say something nice, dont say anything at all”.  Now, then….these ladies where of course heart broken over these things.  Dont take this crap to heart.  There might be a million reasons why they chose to do this….who cares.  If its not something positive that can lift you up, then let it in one ear and out the other.  After all, we dont really take compliments to heart do we?? Oh, thanks and we go about our day.  While it makes us smile…we dont keep them in our heads more then a few minutes most times.  So, let them insults/negativity go the same darn way.

Let me tell ya, this has really ticked me off. We are here busting our butts and making changes to make our lives better.  So, friends, family and everyone else that thinks they need to put their two cents in….either tell them to kiss your butt or just to back off. You can do this. I know you can. You dont let anyone tell you different.  Dont you dare let anyone steal your power, your confidence or your drive to do this!!

Guys, we are here if you need us.  love Debbie

What can you honestly expect on this journey of weight loss?? Do you really think that your going to keep that motivation burning in your heart all the time?? Do you really think that little voice in your head that says, go ahead and have some of those goodies….is going to leave you alone?? Do you really think that your gonna stay on track 100% all the time??  Do you really think that some foods should be completely banned….all your favorites??  Then, why do we kick ourselves with things dont go perfectly??  We have to learn to expect these things and take them in stride. What does guilt and anger really get you??   We are going to have emotional ups and downs. That is part of who we are as beautiful women.  We can expect pms to come out and to try and take over.  We know that scale can be a jackass–while its not charming to say the least…guess what, its the way it is.  I still do this at times.  Straying off track, losing motivation, feeling guility.  Not as bad as I used to, but its always hiding in the shadows just waiting for the chance to jump out and grab me….laughing at the trouble he causes.  This little blog is to remind me, I’m not perfect and neither is this whole journey. I have to expect all this stuff that comes along and interferes.  It doesnt matter if its just a lack of motivation or pms making me into a mean bitch for a week–its all to be expected and dealt with as it comes.  Really trying to lay off the guilt trips….what a waste of time and energy!!  I do good for a while, then it sneaks up on me.  Thankfully, one thing I have learned is that despite all the ups and downs of this journey….never give up.  I guess what i’m really trying to say is man, just chill out when I hit the skids. Dont make it into some big drama with tears and all that crap. Its normal, natural…i’m just a woman trying to do what I can….maybe not my best….but trying anyway.  Towards the end of next week….pms will be making himself known. You guys know how I am–lord only knows what kind of thoughts will be running through my head.  That joke about next mood swing in 6 seconds….is sooo very true with me. 

You know, I’ve had people tell me….dont get your panties in a knot.  That always pisses me off even more.  Yet, I cant help but think for this time and this blog….yeah, it fits. 

No, I havent been having these problems today. Just thinking about things. I’ve been really tired & been down a bit–sore in strange place from my workout last night.  Thinking about the struggles and you know me, wanted to come in here and write it out.

Much love guys, Debbie

There are things in this world that we control. There are also things that while we struggle with them…its beyond our control. This is my reminder to remember that.

Tonight, I danced away for an hour..maybe a little more.  I was determined to burn away my frustrations.  I face things that are beyond my control and thats life.  Yet, what I do with those frustrations are completely under my control. I could have eaten and eaten, which I have done before and probably will again some day. Yet, tonight….I decided no way baby. Tonight, I’m gonna use something that satisfies something in my very soul…music and dancing.  So, fast and slow…dancing and dancing-closing my eyes as I danced to the music-how beautiful is this!  Sweat running down everywhere, but I was happy. I need to remember this…its so very important. For me, this can replace food as a way to deal with things. Food only makes me more unhappy…where it seems like dancing sets me free.  There is no guilt or shame to be had with dancing…who cares if I take a misstep! While food will just bury me under more fat and riddle me with guilt & shame for failing yet again.  I have to remember this when I’m down, worried, stressed and all that….this will be my secret-an old passion flaming back to life each time I do it.  If I’m in a position where I cant dance at that moment…listen to music or just imagine myself dancing…anything to get myself through the tough times.  Remember the joy!

I just had to get this down guys….I feel this will play a major part in my success on this journey. While I may not turn to it the very next time I need something…each and every time I actually do this….it brings me one step closer to where I want to be.

love ya guys, Debbie

Whew….blogging really late today. Hubby woke me up this morning…he calling to let me know that he could put our son to work and that I would have to drive him up there. Lucky for us, the weather cleared up and melted that ice off.  I sure  hope my son keeps this job. Thats ok, that car sits in the back yard until he can pay to fix it. Of course, we had to shell out money today for winter stuff for my son to work in and pay for food until he gets a paycheck. He’s got to pay us back for all the money we are out. But, you know what….I’m soooo happy! I got the house to myself again til they come home! Well, actually let me change that to…I have the house to myself while my daughter is at school.  No more listening to the tv going 24 /7…and just the noises that come with having teens in the house! lol.  I love my family but really used to having the house to myself. Now, I can do my workout dvds and not worry about having to chase my son away (cause if he laughed at me I would have to kill him you know lol).

Last night, I wasnt gonna work out cause I cleaned out my closet and worked for like 3 straight hours..and I was tired. But, I did one anyway…I decided to do the band workout for my legs.  I was doing these one set of exercises and both my legs and abs where quivering like jello lol.  Thats ok, this is the only way to make them stronger is to work them.  Yeah, it was pretty here and I missed the chance to go walking since the drive I had was 2 hours one way and then I had to do some shopping. Crosses fingers and hopes tomarrow is another pretty day so I can get out there. 

Well, guys I guess if i’m gonna eat some supper I better get in there and get it done. Tempted to skip it, but I know thats not gonna work. Talk to ya guys later ok!  Love Debbie

Good morning guys!

I cant believe I went a day without posting a blog! lol. 

Yesteriday was payday, and it sure was a  busy day.  Things went well. Paycheck was more then expected-Yay! I drove over to a neighboring city as they were having a meat sale…..time to stock up!  I was even able to find a dresser for my daughter. All I was finding was those shallow 4 drawer dresser like walmart sales…those are now $100…are you kidding me? lol. Eventually, I was able to get a 9 drawer dresser for $150.  I hated to pay that much but my daughter has clothes now! I suggested weeding some of the clothes that she’s outgrown etc…..she didnt go for it lol. 

 We sure have been hit with some extra expenses lately. Have you ever noticed that when you try to tighten money down…things pop  up that makes you have to spend it. The other day it was a plumber…$160….money well spent though lol. Hubby left his winter clothes here by mistake….so he had to buy some last night. $150 again…but, everthing he got was on sale..some of it by as much as 50 %…so he got a lot for that money…go hubby!

Other news, JC, my son -we bought him a car out of this retirement money-$2250. Nice car. He’s been driving it about a month…but we just now paid for it last week. Ok. He comes home and tells me (while back) something about dropping the car in low gear at red lights and then putting it in drive. Oh that saves gas doing that. I started growling at me to stop doing stupid things cause he was gonna ruin that transmission in that car. Come this past saturday we get a call….yep, he broke down. He has managed to ruin this transmission.

Now, let me give you a little history. Not to long ago, he bought a car on his own from a dealership….within one month…guess what went out on it…transmission. We bought him a car a couple of years ago….had it a month I think…he shelled out the transmission. He would put it in neutral…rev it up and throw it in drive.

I know you guys see a pattern here. I keep telling my son…(before he ruined this transmission) that its not the cars its the driver when car after car does this. That I didnt teach him to do stupid moves he sees on tv when I was teaching him to drive.

It turns out this is a specialty car. No one here will touch the transmission but a place was recommended in another city. Ok…lol–to replace that transmission costs more the the whole car did. We were gonna pay for the replacement. I did not agree with this but hubby was like..gotta do this blah blah blah. I am so very happy to say i’m getting my way on not fixing it. I dont feel sorry for him. I dont think we should pay to have it fixed. I strongly disagreed with hubby on that. He was like we just paid $2250 for that car!! Yep…we did. I made sure hubby knew what my son was telling me he was doing to that car. The thing is, if he was doing that….I know he was probably doing that…throwing it in neutral, rev it up and throw it in drive deal again.  That car is now sitting in my back yard.

The thing is, I’m not mad about the car. I just dont care. My son doesnt listen in any manner. At 19, he thinks he knows everything. In the last couple of years, he has bounced from one job to another in really short time.  He was just fired from sonic last week.  We got into it last night cause he was being an ass.  He was gonna kick himself out of the house, yes…you read that right. I was like whatever.  Then, when he couldnt get a ride any where he came back in and asked if he could stay another two months. Told him, I didnt kick you out in the first place. So, he’s still here. I’m tired of it all. I’m still mom and I still love him without a doubt. I told him last night, I dont have to take your shit…and I dont. Anyway, enough ranting about him.  I’m not even mad as i’m writing this….just think if i was still pissed lol.

All that fighting, and I ate some things I shouldnt have. However, ready to tackle today and get a good start on the rest of the week. I did get my workout in…yay!! 

Stay warm guys!! love Debbie

Hey guys, this blog is just gonna be some reminders for what I need to do this week. Gaining steady 2 lbs for these last two weeks and not gonna do that again if I have any say over it lol.

Reminders: (gonna print this out)

1. When I buy groceries monday, look for low fat/low cal versions of things like cheese, lean ham for breakfasts, snacks etc.

2. get my workout plan done today-  and do my daily requirements on this.

3.  No more skipping meals.

4. Keep mood and attitude postitive and upbeat.

5. Clean house daily, get a routine down again.

 6. Looking to drop 2 lbs this week.

I need to refocus on me.  Life is full of tormoil and full of good things…focus on the good-find my little pleasure again.

Well guys, gotta get busy….so much to do and only one of me. Good news I can listen to my music for most of it. Ya’ll have a great day now.

Something happened last night and I dont know if I should be flattered or insulted lol. I got dressed up for hubby last night…hair, makeup clothes….all that.  I decided to run to the store for some beer. Now, background is that I go to this store often ok…last time was just the other day.  They only have 2 clerks for this small store and one of them is a man. Ok.  Normally, when I go in…this guys  polite but doesnt say much at all-doesnt smile ..and I never thought much of it. So, I go in for this beer run. I grab my beer and go to the counter. He starts asking question after question and just a smiling. You drinking alone? Playing drinking games and just on and on. I give him my id…he reads out loud my entire name…mentions that hey, I’m from town so i’m local…cool.  I just laughed cause i’m in this store often…my god..does a little effort change my appearance that much??? lmao.  So, I dont know if I should be flattered or insulted!!  So funny.  Men!!

Hubby is home for 2 days. Its been a while since he’s had a day off so that made me happy.  For the first time in a long time, last night was for us…no tv…no games.  Hubby has been staying up til all hours when he’s home, playing games etc. I know thats his way of coping with stress (or one of them) so I havent really said much.  Lately, its been one of us sick, or I have pms…or one of us is tired..just on and on so we havent spent much time with each other.  We really needed our time last night. You know that song…”I feel good by like james brown (?)”…well, I dont know about hubby as he isnt up yet…but thats my song for today lol. 

I hope you guys are out there enjoying your weekend! I got some work to do so I better get after it. Have a great day guys!! Much love, Debbie

Thats right, I’m peeking in your jars, looking for piles of quarters….stickers…dollars. I wanna know how you guys are doing for the quarter challenge!!  Are you earning your quarters?? Dont give up now…..your earning a special treat as a reward for your efforts!! Come on guys you can do it!! I know you can. I have fallen off the exercise wagon but jumping right back on…gonna earn my quarters!!

Man guys, you trying to make me cry?? Sniff, sniff.  Whew, you guys just reach in and touch my heart you know.  Thank you for all the love, support and even some tough love.  I just wanted to let you guys know I’m in a much better place right now.  I tend to let everything to spill out in these blogs. Some days it doesnt improve things much, and other days like today…I feel like a weight has been lifted.

I have been happier today then I have been in a while.  One thing about all this, i’m learning to bounce back. Sometimes I try to bounce back and I dont quite get there.  Yet, I know by turning to you guys…I will get there.  I am there now.  So, thank you–it really doesnt seem like enough.

love you guys, Debbie